There are moments in life that feel like the darkness has won. Not just a bad day or a rough week—but an unrelenting storm that crushes the spirit, the body, and the mind.
You pray, but heaven stays silent.
You apply, but doors remain closed.
You serve, you sow, you give, you fast—but nothing seems to come back to you.
You’ve done everything right—more qualified than most, more experienced than required—but the opportunities skip past you as if you’re invisible. The rent is due, the fridge is empty, your heart is tired, and even your own thoughts betray you. It begins to feel like the world is ganging up on you, mocking your every effort, daring you to give up.
And somewhere in the middle of that silent pain, a whisper enters your mind:
“Why not end it all?”
It doesn’t scream. It doesn’t shout. It’s a quiet, sinister thought that wraps itself around your hopelessness and makes false promises of peace. It says:
“You’re a burden.”
“You’ll never make it.”
“God has forgotten you.”
“You’re already dead inside, might as well be dead outside too.”
This is the tragic reality for many believers who silently suffer, even with Bible verses memorized and years of faith behind them. Suicide isn’t always a loud scream—it’s often a slow fade, a gradual surrender of hope. And when your mind is worn down, your emotions are depleted, and the heavens feel silent, the enemy loves to fill the silence with lies.
But here is the truth: Suicide is not the way out. It’s not peace. It’s not relief. And it’s not the will of God.
What Happens When You Take Your Own Life?
Scripture is very clear about life—it is a sacred gift from God.
“Know that the Lord Himself is God; it is He who has made us, and not we ourselves…” – Psalm 100:3
When someone takes their own life, they are not stepping into peace; they are stepping into a realm they are not meant to control—God’s appointed timing. They are breaking the sacred rhythm of God’s sovereign timeline. We don’t control our beginning, and we are not called to control our end.
Does God hate those who commit suicide? Absolutely not. His heart breaks. Jesus weeps over every wounded soul who didn’t know how deeply they were loved, how purposefully they were made. But make no mistake: choosing to take your life is a permanent decision made during a temporary season of suffering.
You might think, “God’s not doing anything, anyway.”
But oh, child of God—He is.
When God is Silent, He’s Still Working
There are seasons in our faith walk where God is silent—not absent. Just as a teacher is silent during a test, God’s silence may be His way of testing our trust. Not to punish us—but to strengthen us.
“Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him…” – Job 13:15
Job lost everything—his children, his wealth, his health, his reputation. He sat among ashes, scraping his wounds, cursed by his wife and misunderstood by his friends. But Job refused to curse God. Instead, he held on—even if by a thread.
If you’re reading this and you feel like Job, may I remind you: Job’s story didn’t end in ashes. It ended in restoration.
God gave him double for everything the enemy stole.
What You Don’t See Right Now
You don’t see the future doors God is preparing behind the scenes.
You don’t see the angels warring for your soul.
You don’t see the testimony forming in your tears.
You don’t see the person reading your future book, being saved by your story.
You don’t see the people who will one day say, “Because you stayed, I didn’t give up either.”
You think you’re in the grave, but God says you’re in the cocoon.
Butterflies don’t look beautiful in the middle. The middle is dark, painful, and suffocating. But the middle is not the end.
God Is Not Ignoring You
God is not ignoring your prayers. He hears every word. He collects every tear (Psalm 56:8). But sometimes, He answers in silence so we will seek His heart and not just His hand.
And sometimes, He waits until we are fully surrendered—broken not to destroy us, but to remake us.
He knows how to bring beauty out of ashes. But He cannot resurrect what we refuse to give Him.
What To Do When You Feel Like Giving Up
- Speak It Out Loud
Silence is the enemy’s playground. When suicidal thoughts creep in, speak to someone. A pastor. A friend. A counselor. A hotline. A fellow believer. You don’t have to battle alone.
- Rebuke the Lie
Say it out loud: “I am not a burden. I am not forgotten. I am not hopeless. I am loved.”
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.” – John 10:10
- Declare Scripture
Even if your soul doesn’t feel it, feed it truth:
“Why are you cast down, O my soul? Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him…” – Psalm 42:11
“I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done.” – Psalm 118:17
- Serve Someone
The enemy isolates. But God restores through community and purpose. When you bless someone else—send a message, pray for a friend, give a meal—you remember you still matter.
- Worship Through the Darkness
You don’t worship because it feels good. You worship because He is worthy. Even when everything is gone—God is still God.
You’re Still Here for a Reason
If you’re breathing, there’s hope.
If you’re crying, there’s still a heart beating inside you.
If you’re doubting, God is still pursuing.
You may be at the edge, but God is not letting you fall. He is closer than you think—near to the brokenhearted and ready to redeem everything you’ve lost.
Don’t let a temporary trial steal your eternal calling.
There is more.
More love.
More healing.
More breakthrough.
More testimonies.
More days.
More joy.
More light.
More life.
A Final Word to Your Soul
You may feel forgotten, but heaven knows your name.
You may feel used up, but God is just getting started.
You may feel unworthy, but the cross says otherwise.
You may feel done—but Jesus said, “It is finished,” so you can begin again.
Hold on.
God isn’t done writing your story.
If you are struggling right now, don’t stay silent. Reach out. Pray this aloud:
“God, I feel like giving up. But I give You my pain. I give You my confusion. I give You my life. I don’t understand, but I trust You. I ask You to rescue me, strengthen me, and give me the will to live another day. Let Your light shine again in my darkness. In Jesus’ name. Amen.”
You are not alone. You are deeply loved. And your story matters.
